wrote some stuff down today to waste my pen ink, waste my time, cos i wanna write sth, let my feelings out and yup it's going down the chute.
lol
i think blogs and ljs are so public tt you can't even really write all your feelings down unless you're not afraid of wad pple say. at all. lol.
tt's why i should start a habit of writing stuff tt cannot be known to public down and throw them away.
hahah esp when it's abt unhappy stuff.
it'll be great to let it out and still keep it a secretxP
haha tt's probly why i feel quite laxing now.
such tt i dun feel like revising anything, though i noe i need to.
esp after my screwed-up phy paper. argh. dun wanna talk abt it.

was watching the 10pm show just now.
the girl was supposed to be the obedient and smart one compared to her bro
but she hung out with bad company and even committed vandalism.
all becos she hated the fact tt no one cared for her, that everyone was so busy tt whenever she go home, it's to an empty house.
somehow, i think tt it's very similar to me.
only i dun turn bad (cos of the GREAT friends i have! xD)
but maybe, i become more easily irritated towards my parents and maybe desire company more.
just a random thought,
i was thinking tt if i have children next time,
will i be like a workaholic parent, taking care of their material well-being only,
or will i be more caring towards them?
probly the former, since i'm such a careless person and do things thoughtlessly.
sigh~ i'm not mature enough to be thinking of such things.

i think i'm v naive at times.
like i dun think deep enough, tt's probly why my GP sucks.
i'm always amazed at how pple manage to come up with such insightful thoughts.
i lack tt kind of ability, probly cos i'm superficial myself.
superficial, artificial, beneficial.
lol just randoming away.
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so is superficial and articifial beneficial?
hahaha stop reading this post, dun waste your time,
go sleepx)